Tuesday, September 30, 2008

My first awards :)

Thank you very much vimmuuu… for the awards. Its been about 3 months only since I started blogging, since I had let the contents of my dear pensieve spill over in the blogosphere. From the time I had plunged into this new world, I had found an enormous satisfaction in sharing my thoughts n beliefs n memories with people whom I had never met before, who had understood my feelings, respected my thoughts, valued my beliefs n even sometimes channeled my ideas the right way. I cherish them all, as they are all a part of my life now- my blog-friends.

Friday, September 26, 2008

A Bad Day Today! :(

Today is one of the worst days! Murphy ’s Law was being proven again n again!
“Whatever can go wrong will go wrong, and at the worst possible time, in the worst possible way”

Got up really late today (damn the tablet I took yesterday night!). In the hurry to reach my office on time, I had to do everything hastily, and in my hurry, I forgot my mobile at home! Good God! I actually forgot my mobile at home! I realized it on the bus and went crazy! OMG! What would I do the whole day? How could I survive? My mobile is one of my Horcruxes! I was nearly delirious by the time I reached my office. I had a presentation at 9.30, but made it to the office only at 9.50, with an empty stomach making such a racket that I feared people around might hear it!

Then I saw the presentation schedule and realized that I had attended a similar one long back, so it was kinda repetition, so decidedly went to the canteen to have breakfast. I came back to find my blogspace really screwed up and couldn’t even identify the problem. So took some time, identified it n finally modified it. Next, I ran into the in-charge of the presentation, walking out after taking the attendance, and seeing me on the internet pc, gave me a disapproving look. I had to convince him that the lecture was kinda repetition for me. He just shrugged away. Not good! Then one of my colleagues, a friend, walked past my bay from the conference room, and on enquiring about the presentation, I found that it was being given by my team members, my seniors, and my TL was there too! FUCK! I didn’t know that! I asked my friend why he hadn’t called me; I was only sitting a few yards away from that room?!?! His reply was that he didn’t know I was in the office!! Lol!

It was apparently a presentation that my team was delivering. What would have my boss thought of me? How stupid was I to have not checked after coming, late though it was?! Oh God! I was so screwed! Then I tried to sneak into the conference room, as silently as possible, when suddenly, NR called out from the dais,” Hey! You where were you in the morning?”I had to smile as widely as possible to hide my embarrassment, n said,” Er… I came in late.” N another female called out,” Hey! Hardly been seeing you these days?” I thought to myself,” WTF? I didn’t come only yesterday female! I was there even the day before that!” and my boss looks on… I just smiled at her and said nothing other than “uh huh…” the presentation took a really long time, past the lunch time So my friends had lunch n ice cream without me too! :(

And now, I am sitting here, with my half-filled stomach, in a highly confused muddled up state, with some really important life-changing decisions to make, but with HP7 ebook open instead of doing anything else, reading it for the 1000th time. I need to clear my head… you see? :P

Monday, September 22, 2008

Tagged by Aparna

What do you do when..

- You see a man (or woman) making a pass (trying to woo / flirt / impress) on a woman (or man) you like?
if he does get impressed by that, then to hell with him! if he doesnt, then he has passed the test. so i guess to find out if he passes the test ornot, i wud stand aside n watch!

- Some one you like, is not attracted to you?
then it wud jus be a crush that i might have to add to the list n forget it later if he never gets attracted to me. i m simply not the kind to try to attract him by making false moves to impress him. if he doesnt like who i am, then there is no point in trying to make him like whom i am not, right?

- You are attracted to some one, but both of you are in two different cities?
personally i wudnt consider physical distance as a barrier, as long as both of us r in the same place romantically.

- You are reading a book, and your best friend wants to borrow it and can’t wait for you to finish reading, ‘coz he/she has been looking for it for all their life?
if i really looove tat book tat much, i wudnt take more than a day to complete it neways.. so i wud let him/her wait for jus a day more n then lend it. if i m not really too involved wid tat book, then i guess i wudnt mind lending it b4 i complete it.

- You help plan his / her career, and then, they go on to achieve it, leaving you behind, alone..
i wudnt feel sorry for helping him/her, after all life moves on for all of us, n mostly in different directions. so it wudnt be his/her fault to grasp the opportunity n use it well to go to heights. i wud only be sorry if he/she had refused to use the opportunity for my sake. then no point in my hardwork for his/her welfare right? but if he/she used me to climb up the heights n threw back a stone to keep me down or something of tat sort, then i might be sorry i helped him/her!!

- Insert (and add) a new question(s) / statement(s)..
i m not gonna add ne Qs... but i wud definitely like to add some statements... not my own, borrowed from some1 else, but i love them as i have realized them all too:

I have realized that …The lonelier you feel the lonelier the world makes you feel

I have realized that …Even if I deserve the reward, I need to beg in order to get it

I have realized that …Words hurt me more than the wounds that I had suffered in life

I have realized that …When you have nothing to lose, you show your true character

I have realized that …Closer I am to myself, closer I am to God…

I have realized that …Broader the smile, deeper maybe the wound inside…

I have realized that …No matter how many times I pray, I only get what I rightfully deserve

I have realized that …When I am ecstatic about something, there are never enough people to share it with…

I have realized that …A face is not as important as it is made to believe…

I have realized that …It’s not always a coward who gives up a fight, sometimes smart people too…

I have realized that …You can’t have happiness unless you are already happy…

I have realized that …If you make decisions with your heart, you are bound to regret them later in your life…

I have realized that …Kids are never at fault, they just mirror our faults…

I have realized that …One person’s misery is another person’s merriment…

I have realized that …Every relationship has an expiry date…..

I have realized that …I am better when I am silent….

I have realized that …Smiling all the time can really hurt…

I have realized that …Tears convey more than what words can ever say…

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Invisible connexons between the present and the past

Now I know that I am not a 60 year old or a frequent traveler or anybody famous or experienced or great enough to say the following. But I kind of find it amusing myself. BITS campus was a great place to have spent my vital college years. I had the greatest time of my life, n if there are any regrets, its just that I probably didn’t enjoy it more than I did, though I could have. The campus was cosmopolitan in every aspect with so many people (rather specimens) from various places in India, with different backgrounds, crazy habits, diversified cultures, weird practices, a variety of opinions, a range of tastes and mixed lifestyles. Having known so many people who were so different from each other in most facets, these days, limited though is my new circle of friends/acquaintances is in this new world, I find that I can associate every new person I come across with somebody in my memory, someone from the past! Wow! It feels a little odd at times when I find two totally unrelated people who probably have never even known or met each other, have so much in common, n I start trying to think of some plausible link in their backgrounds. Sometimes it actually feels creepy when I hear someone in the present say the same dialogue as I had heard in the past (definitely not some well-known saying or a clich├ęd proverb or some famous person’s quote or a movie dialogue or anything of that sort). No wonder poor Amisha Patel in Kaho Naa Pyar Hai flips when she sees/listens to the second Hrithik walk or talk! Though it does spook me, it also brings a smile to my lips and some buried memories in front of my eyes from my pensieve. :)

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Love is everywhere!!

vimmuuu has tagged me with this 'love' tag. the truth is i don't understand the a b c of love. but i have tried my level best to imagine love n me in love (rofl big time!) n answered most of the Q from my heart. some of them are not related to love, coz i see it the way i do. well, go on, read it, n get to know my perspective on some topics, n hav fun! :)
RULE #1 : People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
RULE #2 : Tag 6 people to do this quiz and they cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
_|_ to him n then no looking back.

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
i have too many dreams that i would wish to come true. dunno which one to mention here. i guess this is one of my greatest dreams/desires: A world full of friends. To walk on the road or travel in a train or sit in a flight or go to a temple or even go to heaven (after death), with all(ok- atleast most of the people) around coming over to say a hi or jus waving or smiling or at least nodding at you in recognition in a pleasant manner.

3. Whose butt would you like to kick?
vimmuuu's for having made me ans dees Q. (kidding!)
actually, wud like to kick a lot of butts... no preference order n all.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
Shopping from malls to road-side shops, in different cities, different states n if possible, different countries, without looking at the price-tag or even bargaining, Adventurous trips to unfathomable places and..... may be get a room (not just a closet or a wardrobe) full of clothes- different types of them. lol.

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
thats my idea of love itself. moving a step ahead from best friends. if one can't bcom best friends, then how can they love eachother? (but yes- this applies only if my best friend is a guy.. :P)

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
second one i guess.

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
i am prepared to wait all my life, but i really dont think my parents would take that answer. :D

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
i dont know! i really dont think I wud get 'feelings' for a committed person. y wud i wanna hurt others n myself? that doesnt make sense to me!

9. If you like to act with someone, who will it be? Your gf/bf or an actress/actor?
yeah.. i wud faint on stage.(wud to scared to do it u c...) so doesnt matter who ever it wud be as long as they dont curse me for fainting n ruining their scene. :P

10. What takes you down the fastest?
may be lack of confidence or may be lack of patience.

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?

12. What’s your fear?
a cage. being made to sit at home, doing things i hate, being restricted (by people who mean a lot) from doing what i want or going where i desire, being compelled to be what i am not.

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
a gr8 friend of mine in blogosphere, a romantic who wud like to be loved, a teetotaler [;)], n emotional kinda guy, who wud claim to prefer to be single and rich, but i feel he wud choose married but poor, a person with real talent and the guts to pursue his dreams. :)

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
plz gimme a few years to think for this answer.

15. What’s the first thing you do when you wake up?
uh... brush?!? may be roll on the bed for a few min (after i wake up i mean), trying to remain in the trans state.(i love it u know- not fully awake, not sleeping, very confused over where i am n happy to think i dont have anything to do that day.. :))

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
if i love that person, i guess yes.(though i may not be too happy to give/give up some things, i wud still do it for i love him n i know that he loves me as much too, he wants me to do it really badly n he is helpless. i wud hate myself for doing it, but well... i wud still do it.)

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
me? yeah right. sure! even thinking of such a situation makes me rofl! but well, the one who loves me back n the one with whom i can see myself, spending my life with.

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing that special someone has done?
i wud forgive. yes, coz the person means a lot to me. but i dont think i wud forget. i believe that mistakes of people u love must be forgiven, but not forgotten. (as u must be prepared for a possible next time) but mistakes of oneself must not be forgiven but forgotten.( as remembering it always cud make one's life a torture, but forgiving oneself wud only make one repeat the mistakes more confidently.)

19. What are your three most important expectations in love ( Original Question: Will you marry me?)
faith, understanding of eachother's likes, goals n preferences, being supportive n appreciative in every possible aspect.
ans for d original Q: sure darling! y wudnt i?!? ;)

20. List 6 people to tag:


Thursday, September 11, 2008

Socha Hai… Haan Yeh Kabhi Kabhi

Aasma Hai Neela Kyun (Rayleigh scattering effect of the molecules of the air due to sunlight)
Paani Geela Geela Kyun (due to polarity of its molecules n a high surface tension?!)
Gol Kyun Hai Zameen (gravity+magnetism)
Silk Mein Hai Narmi Kyun (the fibres have very small n equal diameter)
Aag Mein Hai Garmi Kyun (Combustion reactions- new bonds formed=> exothermic reaction)
Do Aur Do Paanch Kyun Nahi (uh.. uh... wat?)

Pedd Ho Gaye Kum Kyun (u/i/we directly/indirectly, wantedly/ignorantly kinda support felling of trees)
Teen Hain Ye Mausam Kyun (teen nahin hai mausam- char hain- summer, autumn, winter n spring---> so wrong Q)
Chaand Do Kyun Nahi (again, technically an invalid Q; Mars n Neptune ke do do chand hain. yeah.. not for earth though(if they had meant for earth))
Duniya Mein Hai Jung Kyun ( Human spite, racism, communalism, territory, pride n yeah- the obvious- money n power of course!)
Behta Laal Rang Kyun (really? i dont think so)
Sarhaden Hain Kyun Har Kahin (Sarhaden hain nahin.. hamne(humans ne) hi baniyeen hain)
Socha Hai… Yeh Tumne Kya Kabhi
Socha Hai… Ki Hain Yeh Kya Sabhi
Socha Nahi To Socho Abhi…..

Behti Kyun Hai Har Nadi (Gravity, High pressure region to low pressure region; n mostly doesnt happen these days due to dams here n there)
Hoti Kya Hai Roshni (electromagnetic radiation of any wavelength defined by elementary particles called photons)
Barf Girti Hai Kyun (weight, gravity)
Dost Kyun Hain Roothte (huh?)
Taare Kyun Hain Toot The (taare toot the nahin hai dude, those are meteors- rocks n dust, falling into earth's atmos, again due to gravity)
Baadlon Mein Bijli Hai Kyun (static electricity?!?)
Socha Hai… Yeh Tumne Kya Kabhi
Socha Hai… Ki Hain Yeh Kya Sabhi
Socha Nahi To Socho Abhi

Sannata Sunai Nahin Deta (oh really?1?)
Aur Hawayen Dikhayi Nahin Deti (oh.. didnt know tat b4! :D)
Socha Hai Kya Kabhi, Hota Hai Yeh Kyun…………

Aasma Hai Neela Kyun, Paani Geela Geela Kyun
Gol Kyun Hai Zameen, Silk Mein Hai Narmi Kyun
Aag Mein Hai Garmi Kyun, Do Aur Do Paanch Kyun Nahi
Pedd Ho Gaye Kum Kyun, Teen Hain Ye Mausam Kyun
Chaand Do Kyun Nahi, Duniya Mein Hai Jung Kyun
Behta Laal Rang Kyun, Sarhaden Hain Kyun Har Kahin
Socha Hai… Yeh Tumne Kya Kabhi
Socha Hai… Ki Hain Yeh Kya Sabhi
Socha Nahi To Socho Abhi…..

Socha Hai… Yeh Tumne Kya Kabhi
Socha Hai… Ki Hain Yeh Kya Sabhi
Socha Nahi To Socho Abhi…..

n yet i loove dis song! (all the songs from Rock On for that matter.)

Friday, September 5, 2008

Thankyou Daddy

Long back, when I was had told my father,” Its only Rs. 20 naa daddy? Then what is the big deal?!?”, he had scolded me. He had replied, “Only 20?? Do you even know what the value of Rs. 20 is? Try earning this ‘trivial’ amount n see. Only 20 it seems!” n he was very cross with me. That day, I really didn’t understand why it mattered so much. Another day, we had gone to Globus showroom as some people had suggested that they had a good collection of formal wear. We found that the place was bloody expensive n decided not to buy anything from there as it didn’t seem all that worthy. My father was actually shocked to see that some people actually bought lots of clothes from there, and he said something that I won’t ever forget. He said,” Spending money is not wrong. After all, we earn to spend. But squandering money this way is unpardonable. Not in India, not where people die due to lack of food n money.” Even that day, I argued with him. I told him that it was their money n they could afford to pay 2500/- on a simple shirt n they were doing so. But he never approved of it. he retorted, “We can afford it too, you know? It is not a question of affording. It is a question of spending the right way.” There have been lots of times when my sis n I forget to switch the fans n lights off in some rooms. There he would be, calling out to us, n would make us go n switch them off. We used to get irritated at times.

But now I know. Now I understand. Now I can see his point. Things that never made sense before now seem right! Kudos to my dad for having taught me n my sis the right things, though we might not have heeded to them at that time, and patiently waiting for us to grow up n understand, nevertheless letting us be us till then. Now, I know the worth of Rs 2, let alone Rs 20, I don’t squander money lavishly just for the sake of style, and I always remember to switch of fans n lights when they are not in use. Though I feel really guilty sometimes thinking of the past, I also feel grateful to him in every way. Thank you daddy! :)

Monday, September 1, 2008

Beauty enhanced?? Really??

Disclaimer: The previous disclaimer holds true for this post too.
Why do most people around here (here as in Bangalore) seem to have an atrocious dressing sense? These are people, I guess, with a huge inferiority complex, or with an absurd, dying urge to imitate their role model who would mostly be a model or a movie star, or simply with a highly misplaced superiority complex, who consider themselves too superior and too modern and too rich to dress in a modest, simple, yet elegant fashion. A lot of people try to wear really expensive trendy clothes that are definitely not appropriate for their structure or for the place or the situation (though I guess I am no one to judge it entirely, it does look ludicrous from a public’s point of view when they themselves seem extremely conscious of their dress and their hair and the people’s look on them). They just kill the very beauty that they possess. Some girls wear dresses that they might have liked on TV or even on their friends, without even pausing to think of how it will look on them, or whether it’ll suit them or not, or how comfortable they would be in that dress. Comfort definitely doesn’t seem to be in the top priorities for these people! They end up being very conscious of themselves, trying their hard to look at-home, embarrassed even at the slightest stares that they end up getting bcoz of their stony rigid behavior in the dress that they choose to wear. Some people go one step further n wear all types of funky/ethnic/gold ornaments that seem all out of place most of the times, that even if you try to control the sarcasm from showing on your face, you just can’t help the smirk that would line your lips.

There is this girl I know, who has suddenly started wearing all ridiculously short tops and huge Eiffel Tower ear-rings that we all tease some of the guys here with her just to irritate n embarrass them. I know! How horrible of us! But then, why does she lead herself to such a position? The guys all fight for her Rakhi! Literally!! The irony is that she doesn’t even know that all this is going on at all! There is another female who usually leaves her long hair loose though she knows that her hair is not suited for that and it gets all shabby n tangled so often that whenever you look at her, she would be combing it with her hand or a comb! Well, I do know that it is wrong to laugh right on their faces, but I really do not think it is wrong to laugh behind such people, who tend to be so self-conscious (pulling down the tops, adjusting the skirts, combing their loose hair n fiddling with their odd set of jewels as often as possible) that they forget to be aware of the surroundings, and how people really look at them. Do these people actually think that they look more ‘beautiful’ or ‘modern’ or ‘sophisticated’ with all the comedy that they do to themselves? I really wouldn’t call these people innocent. After all, they are educated, they would definitely have been taught to look into a mirror in their childhood! I would call them ignorant as they care too much about their looks and ultimately wind up not knowing what real beauty is, and not understanding that comparing themselves with other people or blindly trying to imitate others is not sensible, and that they are just making a fool of themselves.

I personally feel that the beauty of a person can’t be measured by the amount of gold ornaments they wear or by the funky look of their dresses or even by their hair style or make up. In fact, I think a person’s real beauty is seen in the absence of any accessories or make-ups. I really don’t know what really attracts guys or what makes them give these ignorant girls a second look or whether these have any effect on the opposite sex at all, that is intended. Oh well… but then I really don’t know much about guys or their opinions in this matter. But I do feel that if they do get attracted to such an artificial beauty, then I guess they would be a ‘made for each-other’ couple after all! All the best to them! Also, a good luck to these ignorant souls with fake beauty, to get their senses back before they make a huge fool of themselves.